what if i could be a star
still me
but free, and a star
i'm told to protect my peace but
i don't have any and i wonder
is it as harmful to delay my peace
as it is to create it
i love you so deeply
i promise, i do
my actions won't show it
but know that it's true
i'll still love you deeply
when i'm not in your sight
know i loved you deeply
no matter what might
i memorized the creaks and cracks
in my bathroom floor
i memorized the ding and scratch
of my shower door
i know the echoing sound
of opening the drawer
i know the corner i sat in
as my brain grew sore
the world is spinning too fast for feet
see burning candles, feel the heat
another year, another cake
another day, same old ache
make a wish but no one can know
keeping that secret is hurting me more
i'm older now, i can handle pain
in twenty years i'll feel the same
fall to spring to fall again
i make the drive, i see some friends
i nod my head, i'll laugh at jokes
it's getting late, think i'll head home
silence washes over me
how much more do i need to see
bristles and pokes at my back as i lay
signals showing help is quite far away
stillness that shouldn't exist down here
movement that isn't supposed to appear