love

the sun had set

the music had ended

eye contact off

the quiet descended

but the car was filled

with the rising moon

the flawless silence

me, and him too

as my head swirled with all the what ifs

i insisted on creating the ending i couldn't help but see

and i couldn't shut off

and my brain wouldn't stop

and i couldn't sleep

but as my head swirls with all the what ifs

i insist on staying up a little longer just to see him

and i want to continue

and i want to see it through

and i don't want to sleep

towering buildings surround me

millions passing by

there's a jungle, it's a maze

i'm caught up in webs of why

i can't see through the lights

and i don't know what i want

i'm turned around in the middle

the words keep changing fonts

nothing here is constant

but god i hate the change

i sit alone with turning tables

i have yet to flip a page

the waves keep on crashing

the trees, they only sway

but no matter where i am

with you, i feel okay

this kind of night was the epitome of love

we both knew we were falling we just wouldn't say for what

everything was sudden but nothing was too fast

we had all the time we wanted, only the stars to outlast

the dark was all but lonely, the silence wasn't mute

the comfort couldn't have been real, the peace was absolute

this night was so complex but i have yet to be confused

my body felt okay even though it's been all bruised

nothing was expected but everything was known

i felt a genuine connection through some thread i hadn't sewn

the walls were broken down, the ropes were all unwoven

and everything was natural, i don't feel like i chose him

yet the love i have and feel grows greater every day

and i wouldn't have wanted that night in any other way

and suddenly-

i realized

-all of the words of all of the songs

were about him.

above the mountains and the clouds

buried deep into the sand

farther than the ocean goes

past all forgotten land

the air gets thinner

but still we breathe

i scream to you off the cliff

all the secrets i keep

my echoes don't end

they travel around

there's endless noise but

i don't hear a sound

larger than me and you combined

in a place belonging to love

no one will find it, no one will know

surrounded by people, it's just us

atmospheric music filled the room

eyes wide open reflecting with blue

the hum of the motor as the light gives the cue

glancing down lower as if you grew

up on your shoulders, we're on the move

fabric on skin in the cold morning dew

i point to the sky as it changes in hue

your gaze follows mine and i show you the moon

you walk in the dark with me all the way through

salt fills my face as if this is new

"it will be okay" and "i'll see you soon"

i'd listen to you if it wasn't true

i'd give you the sun, though you deserve two

all by myself, i'm thinking of you

even in your absence

i feel you all over me

our lips are interlocked

hands on my skin softly

i feel our laughter in my soul

i feel your smile on my eyes

and i think about you every time

i sit and order fries

your words are more than others hear

but i understand them all

i love you more than love itself

and i will catch you should you fall

from the way you are with words

to the love inside your eyes

everything you do

can give me all these butterflies

they flutter Up and Out

landing on the wall

singing "if you hear me, see me, catch me"

i'm not worried, they won't fall

they go through changes i can't see

i don't know which way they flew

but i'm never one without the other

every time i'm next to you

class to class and state to state

they watch as we take on the world

laughing in my car and now

my lips, they taste like yours

you feel like home to me

and i want nothing more

than to sit on our porch together

and watch the monarchs on our door

smooth brew pouring into cups

hot liquid hits my teeth

my tongue feels all the flavors

this coffee's what i need

it gets me up and out of bed

it makes me feel okay

doesn't matter what it looks like

it's perfect every way

i get excited when i see it

i smile, so relieved

everything feels better

i have my coffee finally

the plane flies up, higher than i’ve ever been

i can’t see you anymore but i’m still yours

and you’re still mine

you drive south, souther than you’ve ever been

you can’t hear me anymore but you’re still mine

and i’m still yours

no matter how achey or scared or upset

it doesn’t matter how small you feel

i will never ever let you forget

that the love we have is real

wherever you are

whatever the time

i’ll always be yours

and you’ll always be mine

me and you,

forever

happy valentine's day baby

melodies are filling the atmosphere

it's dark but he's blue skies forever

the pedal's floored, i feel no fear

on love- i'm high, sober? never

i'm young, it's wild, my body is free

the beat drops and we're both in front

my eyes are closed but still i see

there's warmth and light without sun

i feel the breeze, i'm driving fast

my hand leaves the wheel and finds his lap

i'm out of body, levitating

it's with him that i don't mind waiting

his hand reaches out, we sit on the limb

i love him i love him i love him i love him

when i think of pink and purple flowers

budding in the spring

and think of leaves of red and orange

softly crinkling

i think of sun filled skies arising

trees swaying in the wind

and think of snowflakes softly falling

on love letters getting sent

and when i think and think and think

of things as beautiful as those

i think of him, his hair, his eyes

his poems and his prose

(i love him more than everything)

the walk is tough

the trees are thick

the sky is dark

there's fog and mist

the rain comes down

the clouds just grow

we can't see sun

this walk feels slow

i stick with you

though the path grows wide

through everything

i'm by your side

relief, 

it washed over me and i could truly

breathe

i don't think you know how much you really 

mean to me

nothing could ever beat your smile

lips and teeth

riding in the car, i love your hand on my

knee

and i'd do anything just to sit and watch you

read

i had been locked out and you created me a

key

stumbling in the dark you found the switch and helped me

see

and yet i'll close my eyes at any time and let you

lead

oh honey, you are why i know what love really

means

i felt so incomplete but you are my missing piece

i want to see the world

i love going to explore

i like seeing new places

there's just one thing i want more

to be in your arms at night

and by you through the day

it makes me feel like nothing's wrong

to be by your side always

hair between my fingers

hand over your chest

nose pressed to your cheek

like this i don't feel stressed

you bring me peace and joy

you make my heart so full

i will go most anywhere

as long as it's with you

drops of water lying still on my car window

leaves suspended in the air, untouched, unmoved

the sky is so grey that i can't see a cloud

and i stare to the street, the wide empty street

and i think to myself, alone in my car

how full and how loved i feel in your arms

how cared for i feel when you look in my eyes

how happy i feel when our fingers are locked

how lucky i feel to be loved by you

how lucky am i to be loved by you